Feminism | Posted by Steph on 09/23/2009
Tags: transgenderism
Growing Up Different
This is a story of growing up different
of growing up wrong.
you are a young child playing in the park and a stranger asks your mother if that’s her little girl
and she frowns and says
no, my son
but inside you are secretly elated.
this is a story of growing up wrong
of never using public restrooms
because you feel too uncomfortable so you hold it in until you get home.
this is a story of a young boy crying herself to sleep
every night for years
and never knowing why.
this is a story of being laughed at at school
and being beaten up on your way home
and hiding the bruises so nobody else would know.
of being paraded in front of others as an example of what not to do
of how not to be
of a freak.
And maybe you are. You don’t know. All you know is that
you don’t know what’s going on
and that when nobody’s home the sink flows with red
and that in the morning, your pillow smells of salt.
this is a story of misused razor blades and attempted suicide
a story of growing up wrong.
This is my story.
But it is also a story of self-discovery
and of being accepted
and learning how to roll with the punches
instead of being bruised by them.
This is a story of fixing your body
and getting the poison out of your bloodstream
until there’s almost no testosterone left
and not hating yourself
for the first time in years.
This is a story of growing up different
of bravery and courage
and finally being who you’ve always been
and still being held up as an example of what not to do
but not giving a damn because you know what they don’t.
This is a story of growing up different
of growing up right.
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Brenna @ at 6:51 pm, September 23rd, 2009
Wow. I love it.
Steph @ at 9:19 pm, September 23rd, 2009
Thanks, Brenna!
Helen H. @ at 10:40 am, September 24th, 2009
Wow. This was disarmingly upfront. Amazing work.
Ariane C. @ at 11:37 am, September 27th, 2009
I really love it.
bee @ at 10:01 pm, October 12th, 2009
this is awesome. thanks for sharing it.